Chapter 8: Riverside Park
It was cold but bright, the kind of winter day that feels like a gift.
Liam ran ahead the moment we reached the path, his boots loud on the gravel, Mr.
Buttons tucked under one arm.
Amara walked between me and Gloria, not holding either of our hands, but close enough that her shoulder bumped mine every few steps.
Gloria had brought a bag.
She pulled out a thermos of hot chocolate and four cups, which made Liam reverse direction at full speed.
"You remembered," Amara said, looking at the cups.
"You mentioned it," Gloria said.
"At the kitchen table.
On Christmas morning.
You said hot chocolate was your favorite winter thing."
Amara looked at her grandmother for a moment.
"You were listening," she said.
"I was," Gloria said.
"I'm trying to listen better."
We found a bench near the duck pond.
Liam sat between Andrew and Gloria, explaining something urgent about the ducks.
Gloria listened with the same complete attention she had given his cartoon explanation at the kitchen table — no phone, no distraction, no glance away.
Andrew caught my eye over the top of Liam's head.
I looked away first.
Toward the water.
After a while, Amara climbed up onto the bench beside me and leaned against my arm.
"Mom," she said quietly.
"Is Grandma staying this time?"
I looked at Gloria, who was now being shown a stick Liam had found and apparently considered significant.
"I think she's trying to," I said.
"Okay." Amara was quiet for a moment.
"I already put her in my family drawing at school.
The one on the wall."
"Did you?"
"I put her in the back because I didn't know if she was coming back.
But I left room."
I put my arm around her.
On the walk back to the car, Gloria fell into step beside me while Andrew took the kids ahead to look at something Liam had spotted in the grass.
"I called Synthia this morning," Gloria said.
I waited.
"I told her I wouldn't be needing her advice about my family anymore." She kept her eyes forward.
"She said some things.
I let her finish.
And then I said goodbye."
"How do you feel?"
"Lighter." She paused.
"And a little foolish.
And very, very tired of wasting time."
I didn't say anything.
"I know I can't get back what I missed," she said.
"The first months.
The welcome party.
All of it." She stopped walking.
"But I would like — if you'll allow it — to stop missing things from here."
I looked at her.
She looked back at me, and for the first time since I'd known her, there was nothing defensive in her face.
No armor.
Just a woman who had taken a long time to get somewhere she should have been from the start, and knew it.
"You'll need to be patient," I said.
"With them.
And with me."
"I know."
"And if you ever —" I stopped.
Started again.
"If you ever say anything like what you said at that party.
To them or in front of them.
That's the end.
I mean that."
"I know that too," she said.
"Hannah.
I know."
We stood there for a moment in the cold bright air.
Then Liam shouted from twenty feet away: "Grandma!
Come look!
It's a REALLY big stick!"
Gloria looked at me.
Something in her face — relief, maybe, or the beginning of something that might become joy — broke open quietly.
She walked toward him.
I watched her crouch down beside Liam in the frost-stiff grass, both of them examining that stick like it was the most important discovery either of them had ever made.
Amara slipped her hand into mine.
I held it.
In Amara's class drawing, Gloria was in the back, a small figure with a little space around her.
But she was there.
She had been there since October, waiting in crayon and glitter, while the rest of us caught up.
That felt right.
Some people need longer to find their way to love.
The important thing is that they find it.
And that when they do, someone has left them room.
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