Chapter 9: The Morning She Came Home
Jennifer arrived at half past ten.
A gray sedan pulled up to the curb and she stepped out before it had fully stopped, the way she always used to do when she was a teenager and I'd told her a hundred times not to.
Some things don't change.
She was taller than I remembered, or maybe she just carried herself differently.
Her hair was shorter.
She was wearing a plain blue sweatshirt and jeans and she had a small bag over one shoulder and she walked up the front path looking at the door the whole time, not at the yard, not at the street, just at the door.
I opened it before she reached the porch.
She stopped on the top step.
We looked at each other.
"Hi," she said.
"Hi," I said.
She crossed the last two feet and I put my arms around her and she put her arms around me and we stood there on the porch for a long time not saying anything.
She was shaking slightly, or I was — I couldn't tell where one of us ended and the other began.
"I've got you," I said into her hair.
"I've got you."
She nodded against my shoulder.
She didn't cry.
I think she'd run out of tears somewhere along the way.
But she held on, and I held on, and the morning was bright and ordinary around us — a neighbor's lawn mower, a dog barking two streets over, the smell of someone's coffee — and none of it seemed wrong anymore.
Then from inside the house came a small, determined sound.
Jennifer pulled back.
Her face changed completely.
Lily had pulled herself up on the edge of the couch and was standing there on unsteady legs, looking at the door with an expression of absolute concentration.
Jennifer made a sound I had never heard from her before.
She crossed the room in three steps and dropped to her knees on the floor and Lily let go of the couch and took two lurching steps forward and then Jennifer had her, both arms, pulling her in, pressing her face against the top of her daughter's head.
"Hi, my girl," she said.
"Hi.
I'm here.
I'm right here."
Lily grabbed a fistful of Jennifer's sweatshirt and held on.
I stayed in the doorway and let them have it.
Later, we sat at the kitchen table — the three of us — with tea and toast and the ordinary, almost unbearable normalcy of a morning at home.
Jennifer told me pieces of the five years, not all at once, not in order.
I didn't push.
There was time.
There was going to be time.
Ray had been formally charged that morning.
Merritt had texted me the confirmation at 8 a.m.
Twelve counts.
Federal.
His attorney had already issued a statement, which I hadn't read and didn't plan to.
Dennis had called once.
I had let it ring.
He left a voicemail I hadn't listened to yet.
There was time for that too, or there wasn't — I hadn't decided.
What I had decided was smaller and more important.
I had bought a second toothbrush.
I had cleared out the top drawer in Jennifer's old room for Lily's things.
I had moved the photograph from the nightstand to the kitchen windowsill, where the light hit it in the morning.
Jennifer noticed it while she was spreading butter on her toast.
She looked at it for a moment without saying anything.
Then she looked at me.
"You kept it out," she said.
"Every day," I said.
She set down her knife.
She reached across the table and put her hand over mine.
Lily, in the chair between us, banged her spoon on the table twice with great satisfaction, and we both laughed, and the sound of it filled the kitchen and went all the way up to the ceiling and stayed there.
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