Chapter 9: After
Three weeks later, Emily walked out of Crestview on a Tuesday morning.
She carried the cardboard box herself.
I offered to take it and she shook her head.
Lily was holding her other hand, wearing a yellow jacket she'd picked out specifically for the occasion, talking without stopping about the bedroom I'd set up for her at my house — the one with the window that faced the backyard, the one she'd already decided needed a bird feeder.
Carol Briggs was standing near the entrance when we came out.
She wasn't on shift.
She'd come in on her day off.
Emily stopped when she saw her.
She handed me the box.
Then she hugged Carol for a long time, and Carol hugged her back, and neither of them said anything, and that was exactly right.
In the car, Lily sat in the back seat between the box and the window and narrated everything she saw on the drive — a dog on a leash, a red truck, a billboard for a mattress company that she found inexplicably funny.
Emily sat in the passenger seat with her eyes forward and her hands in her lap, and once, somewhere on the highway, she reached over and put her hand briefly on my arm.
I didn't say anything.
Neither did she.
Ryan's preliminary hearing had been set for the following month.
The charges included filing a false death record, financial fraud, and fraudulent use of a signature.
His attorney had entered a not-guilty plea.
Gerald said the evidence was substantial.
Sandra had been interviewed twice.
She had not been charged yet.
Gerald said yet with a particular emphasis that suggested he was watching it carefully.
Vanessa had retained her own attorney.
She was cooperating with investigators and had provided a written statement confirming that Ryan had told her Emily was d*ad before they began their relationship.
Her attorney had made clear she was a witness, not a participant.
Gerald thought that was probably accurate.
The emergency custody order had been granted on the second day.
Ryan's attorney had filed a response, but the judge had reviewed the circumstances and the response had not changed the order.
Lily did not ask about her father for the first week.
On the eighth day, she asked Emily, quietly, at the kitchen table, whether her daddy was a bad person.
Emily was quiet for a moment.
Then she said: "I think your daddy made some very wrong choices.
And wrong choices have consequences.
But you don't have to figure out how you feel about that right now.
You have time."
Lily thought about it.
"Okay," she said.
Then she went back to her cereal.
The bird feeder went up on a Saturday.
Lily had researched which seeds attracted which birds with a focus that I found both impressive and slightly alarming for a seven-year-old.
Emily sat on the back steps and watched, wrapped in a cardigan, a mug of coffee in both hands.
I sat beside her.
"How are you doing?" I said.
"I'm doing," she said.
Which was honest.
"That's enough for now," I said.
She leaned her head briefly against my shoulder.
"Yes," she said.
"It is."
Lily called out from the yard: "Uncle James, it says sunflower seeds attract cardinals.
Do we have sunflower seeds?"
"We'll get some tomorrow," I said.
"Can we go today?"
"Tomorrow," Emily said.
Lily considered this.
"Okay.
Tomorrow." She went back to adjusting the feeder with the focused seriousness of someone doing important work.
Emily watched her.
The morning was quiet.
A neighbor's lawnmower somewhere in the distance.
The particular stillness of a Tuesday in a residential street where nothing dramatic was happening and everything was, slowly, beginning to be all right.
Emily took a long sip of her coffee.
"She hid my picture," she said.
Not for the first time.
She'd said it before, in the hospital, and once in the car, and now here.
Each time it came out a little differently — a little less like a wound and a little more like something she was learning to hold.
"Under the mattress," I said.
"Every night."
Emily nodded.
She didn't say anything else.
Lily got the feeder positioned to her satisfaction and stepped back to assess it with her hands on her hips, head tilted, the posture of someone who has completed a significant project.
"Done," she announced.
"Good work," Emily said.
Lily beamed.
Then she ran back across the yard and threw herself onto the step between us, wedging herself into the space like she'd always belonged there.
She had always belonged there.
Emily put her arm around her.
I put mine around Emily.
The three of us sat on the back steps in the morning light, and the bird feeder waited, and the day moved forward the way days do — quietly, without asking permission, one moment at a time.
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*Some people are taken from us slowly, through lies told one day at a time — and some families find their way back the same way, one truth at a time.*
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