Chapter 4: What Daniel Was Reading

He typed something.
Then he stopped.
Then he typed again.
I watched his face while Marcus moved quietly in the kitchen, opening cupboards, finding bread, finding the peanut butter Noah liked.
The sounds were ordinary.
Domestic.
They felt wrong against everything that had just happened in that room.
"Who are you texting?" I asked.
Daniel looked up.
"No one."
"Put the phone on the table."
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me."
He didn't move for a moment.
Then, slowly, he set the phone face-down on the table.
"Face up," I said.
"This is not —"
"Daniel." My voice was flat.
"Your mother just filed a legal challenge against our son's paternity.
You signed it.
You sat at that table and watched him cry on the floor and you said nothing.
You do not get to tell me what is or is not appropriate right now.
Turn the phone over."
He turned it over.
The screen was dark.
Locked.
"You want my passcode too?" he said.
There was an edge in his voice now.
Not anger exactly.
Something more defensive.
The tone of a man who knows he has done something wrong and has decided that offense is the better posture.
"I want to know who you were texting."
"My attorney."
"At eight-thirty on a Saturday evening."
"He takes calls."
Marcus came back from the kitchen with a plate.
Bread, peanut butter, sliced banana.
He set it on the table in front of the chair beside me and looked at Noah.
"Hey, buddy.
You hungry?"
Noah lifted his head from my shoulder.
He looked at the plate.
Then he looked at Marcus.
"Uncle Marc?"
"Yeah, it's me." Marcus sat down across from him.
"I made you a snack.
The banana ones are the best, I promise."
Noah slid off my lap and into the chair.
He picked up a piece of bread and ate it with both hands, the way four-year-olds do, watching Marcus the whole time.
I looked back at Daniel.
"What did your attorney say?"
"That we should talk tomorrow.
When things are calmer."
"Things are calm," I said.
"I'm very calm.
What did he say?"
Daniel pulled the phone back toward him.
"He said the letter you showed my mother complicates the challenge.
But it doesn't eliminate it.
The duress argument is still viable."
"There was no duress.
You proposed the transfer."
"I proposed it under pressure from you."
The room shifted.
Marcus looked up from the banana slices.
"Say that again," I said.
"You were pregnant," Daniel said.
"I was — you know what the situation was.
My mother was against the marriage.
You said if I didn't put the house in your name you weren't sure you could trust the future.
That's pressure.
That's emotional leverage.
A good attorney can make that argument."
"I was pregnant with your child," I said.
"I asked for security.
That is not leverage.
That is a woman with a baby asking the man she is about to marry whether he is serious."
"The court doesn't always see it that way."
"Is that what your attorney told you?"
He didn't answer.
"Daniel." I leaned forward.
"Look at me."
He looked at me.
"Do you want this?" I asked.
"Do you actually want to stand in a courtroom and argue that your own son might not be yours, and that the house you put in my name was a mistake, and that our entire marriage was some kind of trap I set for you?
Is that the story you want to tell?"
Something moved across his face.
Not guilt exactly.
More like exhaustion.
The look of a man who has been carrying something heavy for a long time and is not sure anymore whether he is holding it or it is holding him.
"I don't know what I want," he said.
"That's honest, at least."
"She's my mother," he said.
"She has been my mother for forty-one years.
You have been my wife for five.
I'm not saying she's right.
I'm saying it's not simple."
"She put your son on the floor."
"I know."
"And you sat there."
"I know." His voice cracked slightly on the second word.
Just slightly.
"I know what I did.
I know what I didn't do.
I don't need you to list it."
"Then what do you need?"
He looked at Noah, who was working through the second piece of bread with total concentration, completely unaware of the conversation happening around him.
"I don't know," Daniel said again.
His phone lit up on the table between us.
Not a text.
A call.
The name on the screen was not his attorney.
It was a woman's name I had never seen before.
Daniel reached for the phone fast.
May you like
Too fast.
I got there first.