Chapter 9: What Grew Back
Spring came the way it always had — slowly, then all at once.
The first buds appeared on the apple trees in late March.
Ben saw them before I did.
He came inside one morning with mud on his knees and his face open in a way it hadn't been all winter.
"Mum.
Come and look."
I followed him outside in my coat and stood in the cold morning air looking at the small tight clusters of green at the ends of the branches.
"He said they'd keep feeding us," Ben said.
"He did."
Ben crouched down and touched the base of the nearest trunk — the oldest tree, the one Daniel had planted the year before Ben was born.
He pressed his palm flat against the bark and held it there for a moment.
Then he stood up and went inside for breakfast.
I stayed.
Frances had sent a final letter two weeks earlier.
Garrett had made no further contact.
Monica had withdrawn her solicitor's claim and, true to her word, had given Frances a full written account of Garrett's approach and what he had told her.
Frances had filed it carefully in case it was ever needed.
Monica and I were not friends.
We might never be.
But she had stopped the curtain-watching, and once, when Lily had chased a ball into the road, Monica had been the one to step off her porch and stop the traffic.
I hadn't said anything about it.
Neither had she.
Roy had taken to checking in every few days — not intrusively, just a knock, a question about whether I needed anything from the shops.
He'd helped Ben build a small wooden frame for the vegetable patch in February, the two of them working quietly on a Saturday afternoon while I watched from the kitchen window.
Diane had come for tea in January.
She'd sat at the kitchen table and said, without preamble, "I should have come sooner.
I'm sorry I didn't."
"You came now," I'd said.
"I let her talk me into staying quiet."
"You didn't know what she was doing."
"I had a feeling." She'd looked at her cup.
"I ignored it because it was easier."
"We all do that sometimes."
She'd looked up.
"You're being very kind about it."
"I'm being honest about it," I'd said.
"There's a difference."
She'd almost smiled.
It had felt like the beginning of something.
On a Saturday in April, I made a large batch of apple cake from the last of the preserved fruit — the jars Daniel had put up the year before, the harvest before the one that was taken.
I took a portion to Roy.
I took a portion to Diane.
I stood at Monica's gate for a long moment.
Then I opened it and knocked.
She answered looking surprised.
I held out the plate.
"From last year's harvest," I said.
"The jars he put up."
Monica looked at the plate.
Then at me.
"You don't have to—"
"I know," I said.
"I wanted to."
She took it with both hands.
Her eyes were bright in a way that had nothing to do with triumph.
"Thank you, Claire," she said quietly.
I walked home.
Ben was at the kitchen table doing homework.
Lily was drawing again — horses, always horses.
I put the kettle on and stood at the window looking at the garden.
The trees were full of buds now.
In a few weeks they would be in blossom.
In summer, the fruit would come back — smaller this year, probably, after the stripping.
But it would come back.
It always came back.
I made two cups of tea and set one in front of Ben without asking.
He looked up, then back down at his work.
His hand reached out and wrapped around the cup.
That was enough.
The last thing Daniel had ever said to me, the night before he went into hospital for the final time, was not dramatic.
He hadn't known it was the last time.
He'd been tired, and he'd held my hand in the dark, and he'd said, "You'll be all right, you know.
You always are."
I hadn't believed him then.
I was beginning to.
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