Chapter 10: What Forty-One Means
Patricia Sohn's office began the process of identifying the forty-one women through the server records over the following three weeks.
Some were easy to find.
Some had moved.
Three had d*ed.
Two already knew — they had found the forum on their own but had been too afraid of the legal threats to come forward.
Carol coordinated the outreach.
She was methodical and gentle and she had a way of explaining what had happened that made people feel less alone in it.
I helped where I could.
I made calls.
I sat with two women who lived within driving distance and listened while they described the same thing I had felt in that hospital room — the specific vertigo of being told that your body had been used as a resource by someone who had never once thought of you as a person.
One woman, a retired schoolteacher named Bev, had a son who was twenty years old and had been searching for his biological origins through a consumer DNA service.
He had gotten no matches.
Now he would.
"He's going to have questions," Bev said.
We were sitting at her kitchen table.
She had made tea she hadn't touched.
"Yes," I said.
"I don't know how to explain it to him."
"You tell him the truth," I said.
"You tell him it wasn't your choice and it wasn't his fault and you love him exactly the same as you did before you knew." I paused.
"That's what I would want someone to say to Nora."
Bev picked up her tea.
Her hands were steadier than mine had been that first night.
"Does it get easier?" she asked.
"It gets clearer," I said.
"Easier comes after that."
At home, things were shifting in small ways.
Nora had moved into the guest room with Daisy.
She was quiet in the mornings and more open in the evenings, after dinner, when our son Marcus stayed late and the four of us sat around the kitchen table and talked.
She had a dry sense of humor that appeared without warning.
She asked questions about our family — about Christopher's work, about where the boys had grown up, about photographs on the wall — with a careful curiosity that reminded me of someone learning a language they had always wanted to speak.
Christopher was different too.
More present.
He came home earlier.
He asked Nora real questions and listened to the answers.
One evening I found him in the guest room doorway, talking to Daisy in a low voice while she was awake in her crib, describing the backyard to her in detail, the oak tree, the bird feeder, the broken fence post he had been meaning to fix for two years.
I stood in the hallway and didn't interrupt.
Three weeks after Hale was brought in for questioning, Patricia Sohn called again.
"He accepted a cooperation agreement," she said.
"He will testify against Ellison in exchange for reduced charges.
He will plead to two counts of fraud and one count of falsification of medical records.
He will pay restitution to each of the forty-one women.
The amount is being negotiated but the structure is agreed."
"He doesn't go to prison," I said.
"He will serve eighteen months, with the possibility of early release after twelve.
I know that's not—"
"It's not nothing," I said.
"What about Ellison?"
"She has been charged with twenty-three counts.
Her attorney is already in contact with the DA's office.
She has fewer options than Hale did.
The evidence against her is more direct." A pause.
"She will likely serve time.
Real time."
I stood at the kitchen window.
The oak tree in the backyard was starting to turn.
"And the forty-one women?"
"They will each receive formal notification of the investigation, a copy of their relevant records, and the restitution payment once the amount is finalized.
Any who wish to give victim impact statements will have the opportunity." She paused.
"Ellen.
You and Nora are the reason this moved.
Without the two of you coming forward when you did, Hale's attorney would have continued running out the clock."
I didn't say anything for a moment.
"Carol Voss did two years of work before we arrived," I said.
"Yes.
And you arrived when she needed you to." A quiet beat.
"It matters that you came."
I ended the call and went to find Nora.
She was in the living room, Daisy asleep on her chest, watching nothing in particular out the front window.
"It's done," I said.
"Or close enough."
She looked up.
I told her what Patricia had said.
The agreement.
The charges.
The restitution.
The forty-one women.
When I finished, she was quiet for a long moment.
"Twelve months," she said.
"Maybe eighteen."
"Yes."
"That's not very long."
"No," I said.
"It isn't."
She looked down at Daisy.
"But they know what he did.
It's on record.
It's real."
"It's real," I said.
She nodded slowly.
Daisy stirred, made a small sound, settled again.
"I used to think," Nora said, "that if I ever found you, you'd look at me like a problem.
Like something that complicated your life."
I sat down across from her.
"Do I?" I said.
She shook her head.
"You look at me like I belong here," she said.
It came out quietly, like something she had been holding for a long time and had finally decided to set down.
I reached over and tucked the blanket more firmly around Daisy's feet.
"You do," I said.
Outside, the oak tree moved in the wind.
The broken fence post was still there.
Christopher had bought the lumber to fix it last weekend and it was sitting in the garage, waiting.
Some things take longer than you expect.
Some things, when they finally happen, feel like they were always going to.
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*Some wrongs are buried so deep that the truth only surfaces when someone refuses to stop looking.
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