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Chapter 7: The Sad Man Comes to the Park

Owen decided within four minutes that Sebastian was acceptable.

The determination was made after Sebastian sat down on the bench beside him, looked at the drawing Owen had brought in his small backpack, and said with complete seriousness, "Is that a dragon or a very angry cloud?"

Owen considered this.

"Dragon," he said.

"Clouds don't have teeth."

"You're right," Sebastian said.

"I should have known."

Owen showed him the teeth.

Sebastian examined them carefully.

Owen was satisfied.

Ivy took longer.

She stood at a distance for the first twenty minutes, watching, the stuffed rabbit held against her chest.

When Sebastian noticed her watching and did not try to approach her — did not wave or call out or make the mistake of walking over — she gradually moved closer on her own timeline, stopping at intervals, until she was standing directly beside the bench.

She looked at him for a long moment.

"You have the same eyes as Owen," she said.

"I know," Sebastian said.

"Why?"

Sebastian glanced at me.

I gave him nothing.

"Because Owen and I are related," he said carefully.

Ivy considered this.

"Like how Mommy and Aunt Diane are related?"

"Something like that."

Ivy sat down on the bench on his other side.

She placed the rabbit in her lap and looked at the playground.

"Okay," she said.

Noah watched from a distance for the entire first hour.

He played on the climbing frame, came down the slide, collected three interesting sticks, and periodically looked over at the bench where Sebastian was sitting with his brother and sister.

He did not approach.

Sebastian did not push.

I sat on a separate bench nearby with a coffee I had stopped tasting twenty minutes in, watching all of it.

At the end of the first hour, Noah walked over to Sebastian.

He stood in front of him and held out one of the sticks.

Sebastian took it.

Noah looked at him for another moment.

Then he climbed up onto the bench and sat between Sebastian and Ivy and said nothing further.

Sebastian looked at me over the tops of their heads.

His eyes were wet.

I looked away at the playground.

We stayed for two hours.

On the walk back, Owen held Sebastian's hand without being asked.

Ivy walked beside me and told me in a detailed whisper that she had decided the sad man was actually not very sad anymore.

Noah carried his two remaining sticks and walked between all of us, occasionally bumping against Sebastian's leg in a way that might have been accidental and probably wasn't.

At the corner near our building, Sebastian crouched down to say goodbye to the children.

Owen said, "Are you coming back?"

"Yes," Sebastian said.

"If your mom says it's all right."

Owen looked at me.

"Mom?"

"Yes," I said.

"He can come back."

Owen turned back to Sebastian.

"Saturday again?"

"If you want."

"We can show you the letter O," Owen said.

"I know how to write it."

"I'd like that very much," Sebastian said.

He stood up.

The children went ahead with Diane, who had materialized at exactly the right moment with the particular skill she had for such things.

Sebastian and I stood on the corner.

"Thank you," he said.

"Don't thank me.

Thank them.

They made their own decisions."

"I know." He paused.

"Maya.

I want to say something and I want to say it correctly, so I'm going to take a moment."

I waited.

"I am not going to ask you for anything today.

I'm not going to talk about the marriage or the lawyers or any of it.

But I want you to know—" He stopped.

Started again.

"I want you to know that I understand what you did.

Alone.

For four years.

I understand what it cost.

And I am not going to pretend that I can make up for it or that there is some arrangement that balances it out." He looked at me directly.

"I just want you to know that I see it."

The October wind moved between us.

I had spent four years being angry at him.

I had spent four years building a life that didn't need him in it.

I had become someone who didn't require saving, who had made something real and good out of what he had left her with.

That was still true.

It would always be true.

But standing on that corner, watching him try to find the right words with the same careful seriousness with which he had examined Owen's dragon teeth, I felt something I had not allowed myself to feel in a very long time.

"Saturday," I said.

"Ten o'clock."

He nodded.

He walked away down the street.

I stood on the corner for another moment.

Then I went upstairs to my children.

But that evening, after the children were in bed, my phone lit up with a message from a number I didn't recognize.

It said only: *You should know that not everyone in the Vale family agreed with what Edmund did.

Some of us tried to stop it.

I think it's time we spoke.*

There was a name at the bottom.

May you like

Constance Vale.

Edmund's sister.

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