Chapter 10: What Came After
The paternity results came back on a Friday.
Carol called me while I was at the farmers market two blocks from our apartment, Lucas on my hip, Sophie and Ethan arguing about whether a butternut squash looked like a dinosaur egg.
It's confirmed, Carol said.
All three.
I already knew.
I had known since the restaurant, since Sebastian's face when he looked at them, since Lucas pointed and said *he makes the same funny face I do.*
Thank you, Carol, I said.
She paused.
How do you feel?
I looked at the squash in Sophie's hands.
Like someone who's been carrying something heavy for a long time, I said.
And just set it down.
She laughed softly.
That sounds about right, she said.
The Illinois Attorney General's office opened a formal investigation into Hargrove and Laine six days later.
The firm's name appeared in the Tribune on a Wednesday.
By Thursday, two other women had contacted Carol's office independently — different situations, same firm, same pattern of documents.
Daniel Carter resigned from the Carter Foundation board before the week was out.
He released a brief statement through a publicist that said nothing and acknowledged nothing.
Carol forwarded it to me.
I read the first line and deleted it.
Olivia Bennett did not release a statement.
Her engagement to Sebastian was reported as ended by a society column that had covered their relationship for two years.
The column was four sentences long.
The diamond ring was not mentioned.
Margaret Holt sent me a card.
Handwritten, on plain cream stationery.
*I hope Sophie still has that grip,* she wrote.
*Some people hold on.
The ones who do tend to be all right.*
I put the card on the refrigerator.
Sebastian met the children on a Saturday morning in late November.
Not at a restaurant.
At our apartment, because Sophie had decided that was the only fair way — *he should see where we actually live, not somewhere fancy where everyone has to behave.*
He arrived with three small wrapped packages and stood in the doorway looking like a man who understood that he was being evaluated.
Lucas opened his package first.
A book about deep-sea fish, with photographs.
He looked up at Sebastian with an expression of complete seriousness.
Do you know about anglerfish?
he said.
I've been reading about them, Sebastian said.
Lucas considered this.
Okay, he said.
Come in.
Ethan was more cautious.
He shook Sebastian's hand formally and asked him three questions about what he did for work, listening to each answer with focused attention before moving on to the next.
Sebastian answered all three without talking down to him.
Sophie waited until the others had finished.
Then she walked up to Sebastian, looked at him for a long moment, and said:
You have the same nose as Ethan.
Sebastian crouched down to her level.
I noticed that too, he said.
She studied him.
Are you going to cry?
she said.
Because some grown-ups cry when they meet us.
It's okay if you do.
We have tissues.
Sebastian laughed.
A real one, surprised out of him.
I might, he said.
I'll try to warn you first.
Sophie nodded approvingly and went to get her drawings to show him.
I stood in the kitchen doorway and watched.
It was not a perfect morning.
Ethan knocked over a glass of juice.
Lucas gave a forty-minute lecture on bioluminescence that Sebastian listened to with complete attention.
Sophie tried to teach Sebastian a card game she had invented herself, with rules that changed every three minutes.
He stayed for four hours.
When he left, he stopped at the door and looked at me.
Thank you, he said.
I nodded.
Same time next week?
he said.
I'll ask them, I said.
He smiled.
Ask Lucas first, he said.
I think I need to pass the anglerfish test before I'm fully approved.
He left.
I closed the door and leaned against it.
From the living room, Sophie's voice carried through clearly.
He's okay, she announced.
Lucas, you can like him.
Lucas's response was immediate and definitive.
I already do, he said.
He knew about the light organ.
Ethan said nothing for a moment.
Then: He held the tissues ready the whole time.
Just in case.
I saw him put them in his pocket when Sophie said that.
I stayed against the door a moment longer.
Then I pushed off and went to make lunch.
Three plates.
One for each of them.
I set a fourth plate on the counter and then stood there looking at it.
Then I put it back in the cabinet.
Not yet.
But maybe.
The fish arrived the following Tuesday — a small tank, two goldfish, chosen by committee after a forty-five-minute debate at the pet store that Sebastian attended via video call on Lucas's tablet, held up to the tank glass so he could weigh in on the candidates.
Lucas named his fish Angler.
Sophie named hers Captain.
Ethan named his fish Gerald, because, he said, he looked like a Gerald.
That evening, after baths and books and the specific ritual of checking that the fish were still swimming before lights out, I sat at the kitchen table with a cup of tea.
The apartment was quiet.
The tank light glowed softly from the living room.
I thought about the maternity ward.
The suitcase.
My sister's pull-out sofa.
The first Little Harvest Kitchen invoice I had ever sent, typed on a borrowed laptop at two in the morning while three babies slept in a row beside me.
I thought about Margaret Holt's card on the refrigerator.
*The ones who do tend to be all right.*
I picked up my tea.
From the hallway, a small voice.
Mom?
Sophie was standing in the doorway in her pajamas, one sock half off.
I thought you were asleep, I said.
I was checking on Captain, she said.
And?
She's swimming, Sophie reported.
She seems happy.
Good, I said.
Sophie padded across the kitchen and climbed into the chair beside me.
She leaned her head against my arm.
We sat there for a moment in the quiet.
Mom, she said.
Mm?
I'm glad we got the fish.
Me too, I said.
She was asleep against my arm within minutes.
I didn't move.
The tank light glowed.
Captain swam slow circles in the dark.
And for the first time in five years, the quiet felt like something I had chosen — not something that had been left behind when everything else was taken away.
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